a happy day

hehe...yesterday i was caught in a surprise.
a good surprise. :)

i couldn't stop smiling yesterday.
have to hide to smile. hehe.

i think that was the sweetest thing i've seen from someone.
so innovative, cute and funny.

i still keep the paper and still look at it and smile....

baby don't worry. i'm happily happy. :)

BLOG BLOG BLOG

my photo submission for photography club

okok...
this is what topics i will write about for our sim blog
(just a rough idea only)

brainstorming ideas:
1. sim arts festival
2. y choose sim
3. what sim brings out of me
4. rules to get ready to come to singapore
5. guidelines to choose uni
6. in singapore, what to do
7. favourite singapore food
8. singlish...a bad thing?
9. int'l student night
10. the book 'men in white'
11. photography club's funding competition
12. singapore, like a europe country
13. preparation for exam
14. projects
15. what i do with my sim friends
16. crazy stuffs
17..ook ran out of ideas.


lol.
i hope that people will like me from the sim blogs!
anyway...tmr there's no school!

kidtueng

mmm...
i wonder y ppl can get addicted to marijuana so easily.
maybe i understand them...i'm so addicted to u now. :)
not in a way of like crazy addicted, but just couldn't stop thinking about u.

and yes, i always miss u a lot.

Soon everyone is gonna look at me...SCARY

ok so like recently...
i've been in this campaign about blogging for my uni.
i thought it was a very very good opportunity.
i had lots of fun doing it!
then i realize that this "blogging" is gonna be so happening in SIM!
it's like they're gonna a "life-sized" pic!
eeeeeek....i guess from now on i can't wear normal t-shirt and shorts.
lol....omg...this is so happening.
but it's cool it's cool. i can do this.
take a deep breath keziah!
huiya!
hehe.

My parents came to singapore last weekend!
i was so happy to spend time with them again.
however, the last night i slept with them i cried
cuz it's gonna be the last night sleeping with them in
singapore...i guess i also cried cuz when they came this
time i was very busy with project and spent less time with them.
everything just felt so quick!

Today is such a nice weather!
i'm gonna go have an afternoon nap
while u guys suffer with project work.
LOL

oh yeah.
one more thing.

please vote for me in Casting 2010
Just become a fan and click "like"
Click here to vote!

guess who's back!

so nice right?

hillsong concert

ziqi is back!
that's right guys, my friend is back from hong kong.
uh huh, yep, yep.
no more going to uni alone, lol.
so happy to have someone accompany me.
that's right ppl, my fried is back.

but...guess who's going...
asama is going
she's going to canada.
sigh...i'm gonna miss her...
love u asama.

i've not been updating for sooooo long.
so let's just make a quick rerun...lol

last two weeks ago, i went to hillsong concert at expo!
man, it was so amazing.
i was so happy that i didn't need to go to australia just to watch their concert.
I jumped like crazy man.

then, last week i went to see the ndp practice!!!
i went to the singapore flyer and waited for the fireworks.
and the fireworks were like BOOM BOOM BOOM BOOM WOW!

now, come to yesterday it was quite a bad start of the day but it ended quite nice.
hehe.
so like i went in this interview thing and it didn't turn out that good...sigh.
so, i called my mom and she said, "keziah, my 'ting tong' daughter, you are always
so cute..."and she started laughing about my little mistakes in the interview.
Nothing can compare my mom's warm voice. she can turn a bad day to a bright, shiny day for me again.

later on at night, i went to mount faber.
It was a full moon.
The weather was just nice.
The scenery of singapore from above was just super cool.
It was such a romantic place.
haha.
I wish they have these mountain kind of thing in bangkok.
they only have it outside bangkok, which is like super duper far away.
it would be a quick escape from all the jamming traffic lights.

So that's it.

THE END
and i live happily forever...lol (the typical disney's ending)

my first week in sem 3

i'm so glad to see my friends again!
i missed them so much!
the only thing im missing now is not having ziqi going to school with me cuz she's
in hong kong for summer exchange!
anyway, last wednesday, i decided to bluff my friends. so i wear the wig that i bought from thailand, didn't bring my usual bag, just brought a folder, wore fake specs, and wore new shoes.
then i told amanda to save seat for another new friend (which is actually me. LOL)

so! when i went to the lecture room. all my friends didn't recognize me!
and they were wondering who came to sit near them until they saw my iphone case
and they knew it was me. and they were saying "oh my gosh! u look so different!"
but all my girl friends know that it was a wig...cuz it was slanted... lol!!!! i didn't wear properly!
but then most of the guys thought i really cut my hair..haha! i love bluffing ppl and causing ppl smile because of me. it lowers the tension about our incoming project stress. lol

anyway, on friday i went prawning at east coast park!!!!
IT WAS SO FUN!
i caught 4!!! but the first 15 min we didn't know what to do and how to catch. the employee in the shop saw that we were struggling so he told us how to do it! he's so helpful! hehe.
but we ate only 2 prawn cuz we feel guilty to eat all of them. so we gave the other 4 to other ppl.
u can see in the pic. the big one i caught. and it was quite hard to pull man. but it was so fun!!!
i love it! should go more often. but the uncle beside us was like getting a prawn every 5 min. so pro man. haha!

in the pic, we decided to eat these two prawns cuz we shose the fittest and the weakest one: one of them is the biggest prawn i caught. the other one i also caught it, but it only had one whisker so we think let's just eat this poor prawn. hehe.

then we BBQ it, it was quite sad to see the two prawns dying slowly with our fire. felt quite guilty but we already pierced their bodies with the stick already...so then...we just have to keep killing it. lol. the taste was ok....not that nice...maybe it's because we felt guilty about it.

today, i talked with my mom in skype for about 1 hour cuz i really miss her. she just came back from europe. so i was very happy to talk with her. :D

anyway, i got good news!!! when my mom, dad, and bro were in europe last week my bro sms me saying i bought the new macbook pro for u! and i was like so shock! he's such a good bro. i really miss him. i hope he can do masters in singapore. i always love playing with my Da gege and be crazy with him. :D ah...i miss my parents. oh yeah the funny thing is today my family just arrived back safely in thailand. and my dad called me when the plane didn't stop yet, but it landed already. then my mom told me in the call that ur dad must really miss u. and i said i think so too. my dad's so cute! lol

ain't no love

lately
i've been seeing a lot of love movies, stories, music.
i felt that i didn't feel a love for someone for a long time.
and i still dont.

the last love i gave was painful.
that's the only thing i know

keziah keziah keziah

i realized that i missed many things in thailand.

on sunday, i was so happy to just chit chat with all my cousins.

it was super fun and so relaxing.
yesterday, was totally amazing too.
i realized how much i missed my thai friends.
we went to eat at the baiyoke skytower, the tallest building in bangkok.
and when we finish eating, we went to the rooftop.
then i started saying "i really miss u guys wa"
then my friends were like don't say that or else we are gonna start crying.
i miss every single friend in my group.
Bebe: when i came back i still laugh and smile about ur shoes wa. lol. love ur craziness
Poy: so happy to hear ur voice and see ur smile. it cheers me up.
Nan: i'm so happy for u! u really have become a grown person.
Punk: damn it, my twin. y do twins need to be so far apart? khode miss u a'
Asama: i'm speechless. my heart breaks to see u less often cuz ur going to canada.
okok...let me stop...darn it. i miss u guys soooo much.

today i dyed my hair.
it's coke color.
and i also let them just blow dry my hair to be curly.
if anyone has a comment on it, please tell me. LOL
...

another important issue is that i got accepted in NTU!
seriously, u know what i really feel.
just now when i was praying with my parents
i felt pity for myself
and my mom was asking y r u crying
i told her that
i feel that i got the best uni in thailand
but i went for not the best uni in singapore
now
i got the one of the best uni in singapore
and i don't wanna lose again

....
yet, I know that God's plan is the best for me.
i know that i made the right choice to come to singapore.
HIS plan is always perfect for me.
if God still wants me to stay in SIM
i will stay.

not a good sleep

1st thing:
last nite i called my ex just to say hi
and asked him about his girl
he said they're not bf and gf yet
i was like sheh....dude...go look for another girl
ur so boring.
lol. i want him to be happy u know.
and yes i'm over him if someone really wants to know..
i just called him cuz i just miss him like friend

2nd thing:
i've said very mean stuff to someone.
and i'm sorry

3rd thing:
i couldn't sleep well last nite.
i just realize smth...hehe
it's a long story

4th thing:
i told my mom smth
that i regret telling her
haha!!!

5th thing:
two of my singaporean friends are here already
and i will b busy

6th thing:
i miss someone
but not my ex ok?
someone not in thailand now

7th thing:
i'm super confused

8th thing:
i feel that i'm missing smth

9th thing:
i have not read the bible for too long

10th thing:
i' mstill thinking very deeply
and i'm super confuse of what i want.


last but not least
i feel so bullshit mode in my life now

back in thailand

i cannot stop eating when i reach thailand!
so many nice things to eat!
i'll write about my first day back home in like a timeline:
16.30 reached the airport and saw my parents ...i'm super happy
17.30 reached home and play with puma bento...they still stink! but i still love them
18.00 took a bath and went downstairs to go eat dinner...
i could smell the nice fragrance of the steamed brown rice...all those chilli paste...and my
maid's soup...lol...
19.00 beg my dad to go drive with me around the town...jump, my little cousin went with us too.
19.30 i drove around the town for 1 hour and my dad wanted to eat ice cream so we stopped at
swenson and ate....
20.00 reached home and played a little bit of facebook and showed my parents pics in singapore
20.30 went to my only sis (cousin)'s house and just spend time together. i didnt met her for 2 years already
22.00 come back home and sleep

ฉัน

ฉัน...
ขอโทษที่ไม่ได้บอกลาเธอก่อน

the bullshit game

i remember playing bullshit card games!
it's like....every person puts down a card and states what the card he/she put has on the pile.
now the person may be lying or telling the truth...we don't know.
that's where the word bullshit comes in.
if any opponent thinks that the person is lying what he had put on the pile, he will say "BULLSHIT!" and the opponent has to open the pile if it was really bullshit.

anyway, this game was played in the movie how to lose a guy in 10 days too. by the way, it's a great movie.

recently, i've been saying and thinking of saying this word many times.
reasons:
i'm bored of hearing lies,
i'm bored of people thinking me as stupid,
i wanna say when it's like a "whatever" statement,
or i say when it ain't matter to me anymore ....like "just do ur own thing"

cocoa or coffee?

taken by me when i went with amaris for a photoshooting day

which one would u choose?

cocoa: almost everyone likes cocoa cuz it's sweet and nice. however, if u try the real cocoa nut, u'll find that it's quite bitter. yet, not many ppl know about this fact. its outside texture is hard and not easy to break too. the smell is quite nice which makes ppl feel happy.

coffee: not everyone likes coffee cuz it's bitter and dark. however, the smell of its fragrance is mysterious and nice. the seed may look very dark! yet its taste inside is very rich! maybe it was known to be bitter, but is it really bitter?

the girl and the fire

is playing with fire fun?

the little girl likes to play with fire because it's dancing all the time with irregular rythms.
the unpredictable waves of it is just nice to look at.
everyday she'll go play with the fire outside the house.
and she enjoys it very much.
then one day, the fire was playing too much on the little girl that she ALMOST got burnt on her ankles.
So later on, the little girl stop playing with the fire and created a transparent barrier.
the fire was not pleased and came knocking trying to break the barrier.
the little girl shouted that she didn't want to play with the fire anymore cuz it's too risky unless the fire can prove that it will only provide the warmth she needed on the cold lonely nights.
if that is such the case, the little girl will consider if she will open her barrier.

which direction?

let's pretend keziah is lost in the jungle.
:D
she's stuck in the middle of nowhere.
if she turns to the right. she knows that it's usually the correct way.
if she turns to the left. she knows that it's a lot riskier and it seems like the wrong way too but who knows maybe u will get lucky
if she walks straight she'll just trust her instincts and just leave everything behind.
if she walks back she'll just give up everything and just leave it like that.


but keziah say to herself
"what the heck!"
i'm just gonna call the helicopter to pick me up and just get out of this lost, complicated jungle.
:D

i'm hurt...

keziah is hurt because...
she has broken someone's heart really badly.
but she knows that she can really think of him as a friend.
keziah tears fell down when she read the email.
keziah can feel his pain...
but she cannot help it...what he heard was true...
but she felt shaky for a while...then as time passed by...
she knew that she like him only as friend.
she should have known that he really fell for her too much.
and shouldn't have gone with him.
she felt bad. she understands his feelings.
but

"i'm sorry, i...just really can't...i try to think of u as smth else
but it seems that it's just me....please find another girl...
i feel that our goals of our lives are different somehow..."

please don't cry...keziah is not worth ur cry.
seriously, the girl u will marry is worth ur cry...

Cast all your cares upon God

woohoo!
i finish comm law exam today!
woohoo!
i just took a nap for today.
felt great!
the pic is when i just woke up. hehe
anyway sorry guys that i didn't use my dslr
my hands are super soar now from the exam.
and the second pic is what i call my "french fries camm law notes."
looks like french fries right?
haha!
i would like to take a moment to thank God and share a testimony.
last week, i felt tired, torn down, and just very very depress.
i don't know how i'm going to study everything.
i can never catch up with my schedule.
i look at my comm law book and it looks like a thick bible to read. LOL
i slept at 3 everyday.
my legs cramp almost everyday (didn't tell anyone..hehe)
i didn't even have time to talk to my parents.
when they call me i get annoyed cuz i felt that my time is so precious.
i would tell my mom i'll call her instead. my mom understood sometimes though.
i know that she really misses me and i do too.
the funny thing is when i tell my mom i'll call her later. my dad will call!
and i'll say aren't u guys together? communicate ppl! jk
i love them. my dad sometimes is innnocent this way, but i'm happy that my dad cares for me a lot.


then last sunday, kenneth hagin, a very famous preacher came to preach at my church.
and it was what i needed!
he said cast all your cares upon God.
We have to start realizing that we re God's child and that he loves us and cares for us
and his arms are wide enough to take care of us.
then, he let us hold our hands cast all our cares in the hand and threw it away in the air!
man, it felt great! i jsut told God, God u lead the way, u step in front of me. i know that i cannot do for myself for sure.
then i can tell u guys. i felt that i was 3x times faster after that, just like my mom propehesized for me. I felt God was highlighting the notes for me and telling me what i have to study.
and then yesterday! i was going back home and just came back from esplanade to study. and i was thinking i would study still 2 am. and then i knew ...i really knew... that my body has no strength anymore. I told God i cant do this. i can't push myself anymore. i really wanna study cuz the next day will have exam.
and then i remember what kenneth hagin preached. I cast my care upon Him.
and i slept at 9 pm and woke up at 5:30.
and u know i felt fresh and energetic.
today, i had to ask for another booklet. LOL
i think i wrote about 30 pages of comm law.
i tell u the truth, keziah cannot do this by herself, it must be God.
i even finish 10 min before the time ended.
u know? God is a great God. he 'll never forsake me.


ok ok....i know u guys will get bored of this already.
let me change topic
today on the way back home, i talked with ziqi.
and then we came with the same conclusion...if we didn't have bf during our high school
time, our SAT or a level may be better than this.
we realize that we became more studious cuz we don't need to talk to bf or study with them (u know...if u study with ur bf...u aren't really studying..LOL)
and that we know what we want now in our lives and we feel that we love ourselves more.
I'm glad that i broke up with my ex. i don't know what will happen if we didn't.
cuz seriously, i'll totally miss him and i wouldn't be able to concentrate cuz it's a long distance relationship. i'm glad that God took me out of that place.

for my future relationship, may be my future bf will not be able to tlak with me during exam period. lol. (tsk tsk..just a hint and warning). hahaha!
and i'll not take care of my bf like my past relationships
lol

oh and yesterday!
i weigh the weighing scale and it says that i lost 2 more kg
i don't believe. smth is wrong with this house's condo.
haha!
'll go check in the hospital someday. lol

after i took a nap , i read Bloomberg magazine (financial magazine) today.
someone has introduced for me and said it's very good.
here are some cool facts:
1. while everyone is facing economic turmoil. China's GDP went up about 6.4%
2. Be careful that in the future, the tides in the ocean are not natural anymore. LOL
america has just created a very huge turbine in the ocean. cool right?

anyway, i would like to thank that person that introduce me to read the magazine.
hehe

เพราะความรักแท้ๆ

i miss my parents.
it's hard to live without parents beside u.
there's no one to stop u from whatever ur doing.
and suddenly u become so lazy and so unprincipled.

u miss their encouragement. u miss their hugs.
u miss their physical support.
u miss them being there for us.

i'm so depress about exams.
i just need my mom to hug me
and i'll feel better.

even though my mom and dad talks to me in phone and skype.
i need a hug from them.
telling me "it's alright keziah. it's gonna be fine"

i really miss them.
also my bro. i wish i can hug him too.
he's such a good bro and we had so much fun when he came to singapore.
i really miss my bro.
no one can substitute him.
he's the best bro ever and i love him very much.

argh! wanna cry.
i'm just so broken down with exam stress.

แล้วเสดแล้วก็มีเรื่องเทออีก
ฉันไม่รู้จะทำยังไง
ยิ่งคุยยิ่งชอบ
ฉันซาดิดหว่ะ

ฉันไม่เข้าใจว่า
ทำไมยิ่งหนีแล้วยิ่งตามมา

ฉันพยายามจะเป็นคนดีอยู่นะเนี่ย

เพลงของโต๋บอกว่า

เสียงนกร้องเพลง สายฝนเต้นรำ
รอยยิ้ม เห็นความสุข
ที่เหมือนอยู่ในสวรรค์
ทะเลสีคราม อากาศที่ชื่น ฉ่ำ
และหากฉันนับ ใครมีความสุขล้น
ก็เติมชื่อฉันด้วยคนแล้วกัน

*เพราะความรักแท้ๆ(เพราะความรักแท้ๆ)
ที่เธอเผื่อแผ่มาให้ฉัน
เปลี่ยนชีวิตที่มัวหม่น(ที่มัวหม่น)
ให้พบกับความสุขล้นเหมือนดังฝัน

**เพราะความรักแท้ๆ(เพราะความรักแท้ๆ)
ที่เธอเผื่อแผ่มาถึงกัน
ในวันนี้จะกลั่นความรัก ออกมาเป็นเพลงให้เธอได้รับฟัง
ขอให้นกร้องเพลง ขอให้ฝนเต้นรำ
ให้รอยยิ้มแห่งความสุข เป็นของเธอ
อย่างที่เกิดขึ้นกับฉัน
ขอให้หัวใจ สดใส และชื่น ฉ่ำ
และหากฉันนับใครมีความสุขล้น
ขอเติมชื่อเธออีกคนเช่นกัน


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อิอิ

confused???

keziah is confused...
what do u do if ur confused?
should u keep being confused or just forget about it?

keziah is sad...
she doesnt really know what to do.

keziah is confused about herself!
argh!
she fills like a rookie.
no experience.

usually she can figure things out...
but now
she's stuck
does it mean smth?
or does it not?

she feels that the spark is fading and fading...
cuz it's too long....

sigh.......i'm so confused.....

3 topics: dreams, it's coming soon, other random stuffs

dreams:
i've been having weird dreams lately
last last nite...i dreamed that many snakes come and squeeze me and bite me but it only make a mark...maybe i was sleeping on my hands? haha! dunno
last nite...i dream about my ex...it was quite a very weird weird dream...haha!

it's coming soon:
Have u ever felt smth? u know that it's gonna happen soon. but u know no idea about it. u just feel it. u know what i mean? it's been tackling me for about 2-3 weeks already...it's like a prompting thing somehow...now i don't know what it is at all...just trusting God. But i think it's not gonna be bad...it'll be more of a challenge or good news?...dunno....
and now it's been developing stronger and stronger baby...i can feel it....it's like my 6th sense
haha!

My opinion about Confessions of a Shopaholic:
I think it's a great funny chick flick. i knew that the actor is very fit for this movie cuz i've seen her in other movies before. she's like those who can act very dumb and cute. the main guy is very hawt! i really like his look, like sexy eyes, but sweet face when smiling. haha! okok...the movie is quite romantic too. the kiss is filling too. The storyline is quite good and funny. but then...i can recognize where they cut scenes...but not too many like dragonball (dragonball is very easy to catch that they cut so many scenes out that it doesn't look continuous). The story revolves around friendship, happiness, love, and important choices u make. even though this is a chick flick movie...i'll say that it has a lot of philosophical or deep meanings in it too...so it's kinda like the Legally Blonde movie except that they don't express it but more of implying...overall i'll give 4.8/5 in the chick flicks genre.

go check this out!:
for those of u who r in love with photography go check this out:
http://vimeo.com/2078991
it's a short movie, 7 min, taken with 4500+ shots with canon camera.
it's super cool!
thanks Bao An for sending me the link!

omg i gosh i'm so sleepy!:
omg...i'm really sleepy...i was slacking off too much today. woke up late. went to church. went to watch movie with ploy. went to take japanese photostickers with ploy. spend about 20 min believing that ploy will lead to a bus stop that has my bus no...but in the end i still went back by mrt. haha! coming back home... putting lotions in a convenient small bottles...i want to carry it around baby. but it was quite hard cuz the lotion is not that liquidy...hehe.
took a bath....and then uploading TONS OF photos in fb for the syog meeting...cuz many ppl were asking about it....spend time tagging those ppl....and then doing chinese hw at the same time....and then studying microecons ...and now it's 2:37 a.m.
and i'm super super tired...i cannot hold myself longer.

My philosophy today:
enjoy life...frequently organize your stuffs...doing things in last minutes are what crazy ppl do....change what u do normally...like today right? usually i'll stay home and have to go eat dinner with the host family but i decided to go watch confessions of a shopaholic. hehe....


i'm so sleepy now...i'm opening only one eye. haha!

oh no!

this shows y i slept late today...seriously i was making comm law notes and forgot about the time

oh no!
it's 1:39 already and i'm not sleeping yet!
so sad...
tmr got classes from 10-5 pm
how?
guess i 'll fall asleep again
i need coffee baby.

and after class i got to go pick up my uncle from paya lebar
and then
go to clarke quay for cell group!
and then come back home!
i should go sleep.
haha!
but i cannot sleep yet.

cuz i need to take pictures before i sleep to release my happiness.
haha!

life

........................................when i wanted to write smth
........................................i don't write
........................................when i don't know what to write
........................................i write
...............................................when i want peace
...............................................everything comes around
...............................................when i want excitement
...............................................everything is so quiet
......................................................when i want to diet
......................................................i never do it
......................................................when i don't want to diet
......................................................i just eat less
..............................................................when i wanted someone
..............................................................noone is around
..............................................................when i don't want anyone
..............................................................everyone is around
......................................................................when i think i don't need a guy
......................................................................every seem so nice
......................................................................when i think i need a guy
......................................................................everyone just run away


what a life!

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