Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Cast all your cares upon God



woohoo!
i finish comm law exam today!
woohoo!
i just took a nap for today.
felt great!
the pic is when i just woke up. hehe
anyway sorry guys that i didn't use my dslr
my hands are super soar now from the exam.
and the second pic is what i call my "french fries camm law notes."
looks like french fries right?
haha!
i would like to take a moment to thank God and share a testimony.
last week, i felt tired, torn down, and just very very depress.
i don't know how i'm going to study everything.
i can never catch up with my schedule.
i look at my comm law book and it looks like a thick bible to read. LOL
i slept at 3 everyday.
my legs cramp almost everyday (didn't tell anyone..hehe)
i didn't even have time to talk to my parents.
when they call me i get annoyed cuz i felt that my time is so precious.
i would tell my mom i'll call her instead. my mom understood sometimes though.
i know that she really misses me and i do too.
the funny thing is when i tell my mom i'll call her later. my dad will call!
and i'll say aren't u guys together? communicate ppl! jk
i love them. my dad sometimes is innnocent this way, but i'm happy that my dad cares for me a lot.


then last sunday, kenneth hagin, a very famous preacher came to preach at my church.
and it was what i needed!
he said cast all your cares upon God.
We have to start realizing that we re God's child and that he loves us and cares for us
and his arms are wide enough to take care of us.
then, he let us hold our hands cast all our cares in the hand and threw it away in the air!
man, it felt great! i jsut told God, God u lead the way, u step in front of me. i know that i cannot do for myself for sure.
then i can tell u guys. i felt that i was 3x times faster after that, just like my mom propehesized for me. I felt God was highlighting the notes for me and telling me what i have to study.
and then yesterday! i was going back home and just came back from esplanade to study. and i was thinking i would study still 2 am. and then i knew ...i really knew... that my body has no strength anymore. I told God i cant do this. i can't push myself anymore. i really wanna study cuz the next day will have exam.
and then i remember what kenneth hagin preached. I cast my care upon Him.
and i slept at 9 pm and woke up at 5:30.
and u know i felt fresh and energetic.
today, i had to ask for another booklet. LOL
i think i wrote about 30 pages of comm law.
i tell u the truth, keziah cannot do this by herself, it must be God.
i even finish 10 min before the time ended.
u know? God is a great God. he 'll never forsake me.


ok ok....i know u guys will get bored of this already.
let me change topic
today on the way back home, i talked with ziqi.
and then we came with the same conclusion...if we didn't have bf during our high school
time, our SAT or a level may be better than this.
we realize that we became more studious cuz we don't need to talk to bf or study with them (u know...if u study with ur bf...u aren't really studying..LOL)
and that we know what we want now in our lives and we feel that we love ourselves more.
I'm glad that i broke up with my ex. i don't know what will happen if we didn't.
cuz seriously, i'll totally miss him and i wouldn't be able to concentrate cuz it's a long distance relationship. i'm glad that God took me out of that place.

for my future relationship, may be my future bf will not be able to tlak with me during exam period. lol. (tsk tsk..just a hint and warning). hahaha!
and i'll not take care of my bf like my past relationships
lol

oh and yesterday!
i weigh the weighing scale and it says that i lost 2 more kg
i don't believe. smth is wrong with this house's condo.
haha!
'll go check in the hospital someday. lol

after i took a nap , i read Bloomberg magazine (financial magazine) today.
someone has introduced for me and said it's very good.
here are some cool facts:
1. while everyone is facing economic turmoil. China's GDP went up about 6.4%
2. Be careful that in the future, the tides in the ocean are not natural anymore. LOL
america has just created a very huge turbine in the ocean. cool right?

anyway, i would like to thank that person that introduce me to read the magazine.
hehe

Sunday, April 19, 2009

เพราะความรักแท้ๆ



i miss my parents.
it's hard to live without parents beside u.
there's no one to stop u from whatever ur doing.
and suddenly u become so lazy and so unprincipled.

u miss their encouragement. u miss their hugs.
u miss their physical support.
u miss them being there for us.

i'm so depress about exams.
i just need my mom to hug me
and i'll feel better.

even though my mom and dad talks to me in phone and skype.
i need a hug from them.
telling me "it's alright keziah. it's gonna be fine"

i really miss them.
also my bro. i wish i can hug him too.
he's such a good bro and we had so much fun when he came to singapore.
i really miss my bro.
no one can substitute him.
he's the best bro ever and i love him very much.

argh! wanna cry.
i'm just so broken down with exam stress.

แล้วเสดแล้วก็มีเรื่องเทออีก
ฉันไม่รู้จะทำยังไง
ยิ่งคุยยิ่งชอบ
ฉันซาดิดหว่ะ

ฉันไม่เข้าใจว่า
ทำไมยิ่งหนีแล้วยิ่งตามมา

ฉันพยายามจะเป็นคนดีอยู่นะเนี่ย

เพลงของโต๋บอกว่า
เสียงนกร้องเพลง สายฝนเต้นรำ
รอยยิ้ม เห็นความสุข
ที่เหมือนอยู่ในสวรรค์
ทะเลสีคราม อากาศที่ชื่น ฉ่ำ
และหากฉันนับ ใครมีความสุขล้น
ก็เติมชื่อฉันด้วยคนแล้วกัน

*เพราะความรักแท้ๆ(เพราะความรักแท้ๆ)
ที่เธอเผื่อแผ่มาให้ฉัน
เปลี่ยนชีวิตที่มัวหม่น(ที่มัวหม่น)
ให้พบกับความสุขล้นเหมือนดังฝัน

**เพราะความรักแท้ๆ(เพราะความรักแท้ๆ)
ที่เธอเผื่อแผ่มาถึงกัน
ในวันนี้จะกลั่นความรัก ออกมาเป็นเพลงให้เธอได้รับฟัง
ขอให้นกร้องเพลง ขอให้ฝนเต้นรำ
ให้รอยยิ้มแห่งความสุข เป็นของเธอ
อย่างที่เกิดขึ้นกับฉัน
ขอให้หัวใจ สดใส และชื่น ฉ่ำ
และหากฉันนับใครมีความสุขล้น
ขอเติมชื่อเธออีกคนเช่นกัน


อิอิแต่ฉันรู้ว่าไม่ได้รักนะ
น่าจะเปลี่ยนเป็น เพราะความชอบแท้ๆดีกว่า
อิอิ

Monday, April 13, 2009

confused???



keziah is confused...
what do u do if ur confused?
should u keep being confused or just forget about it?

keziah is sad...
she doesnt really know what to do.

keziah is confused about herself!
argh!
she fills like a rookie.
no experience.

usually she can figure things out...
but now
she's stuck
does it mean smth?
or does it not?

she feels that the spark is fading and fading...
cuz it's too long....

sigh.......i'm so confused.....